Lilli,

You were my first miracle baby. You were born on a rainy day in October. The whole family was there to watch this tiny miracle be born. After a long 22 hours of labor you entered the world and I was in love. The doctor put your warm tiny body on me and I felt I was the luckiest mom alive to have such a healthy baby..

As time when in you grew into a strong willed 3 year old. The first 3 years of your life was a god send. You were everything I ever wanted in a little girl. Because you gave us so much love and joy Mommy and Daddy decided to have another baby. We again headed to the fertility clinic. We were all happy to discover Mommy was pregnant and daddy and I could finally give you a brother or sister.

The day I got my ultra sound and discovered 5 babies mommy's thoughts were on you. How could I do this to your little world? I really wanted you to have everything Lill's.

You were a brave girl during those 8 months. First mommy was so sick and the I was in the hospital for 3 months. I felt I let you down and it can still make me cry to this day. I never wanted to spend those months away from you.

Once the babies were born you were forced to grow up fast. We had so many people in and out of the house. At the same time you were trying to adjust to 5 babies taking up mommy and daddy's time I could never imagine the impact that had on your little world. Now you are a big 5 year old . Your loving, smart, beautiful and a great helper. I can now see what a blessing these babies have had on your life because you love them deeply as I do. You often will tell me when were out you cannot wait to get home to give them a kiss. However there will always be guilt on my part that I don't have all the time in the world to spend with you. Always remember how special you are and how much Mommy and Daddy love you.

Love,

Mommy